Today I spotted some really old pictures in my PC. I went there with a purpose to find old funny videos and was not disappointed.
Memories that are almost a decade old seemed to drag me down to nostalgia to such a great extent that I have forgotten what year it is now. Those pictures were nice and memorable but there were a few things that caught my eye. At times old pictures help you put so many things into perspective.
I used to consider myself fat when in reality I was extremely skinny. This was a result of standards for women’s beauty. And the fact that clothes almost always were tight inspite of being skinny. The only clothes that fit me well were long kurtas that were too lose for some reason.
I accidentally got my hair cut really short one of those years and I hated it back then. But now looking back at it I actually looked really good and should have enjoyed the cut.
I just noticed one of the most important things in the pictures and that is stress. I began greying during my teenage years. There was stress at home due to rebellion and stress every where else as well. My face never looked really happy. I seemed to always be in deep thoughts or worried. Or holding on to something. I had a horrible posture and would squirm in most photos as if I did not belong there.
The whole stressed out look was a result of me holding onto the negative moments of life and wondering which one is the next. Me thinking that the moment that has transpired and is giving me stress is going to last forever.
None of those things are true and this is something the present me has learnt or continues to learn. Life flows like a river. Holding on to a rock in between the river will only make the currents hit your face. Learn to let it go and flow. None of the moments in life last forever, life itself does not last forever.
This blog post may seem ridiculous months from now, just like some of the old selfies. But embrace the past as it were, and let it go. 🙂 The photos are really precious as they hold the most ridiculous moments. I although do think I’ve grown up to be a better and happier person than I was before and am grateful to the whole universe (which includes the people in my life) for it. 🙂 ❤
Just if I ever had time travel machine I’d go back to the past me and tell her nothing is forever, especially not the negative moments so let your worries go and flay your arms a little as you walk you awkward weirdo. 😛 But if I did do that it would be ironical. So I’d use my time machine for something more noble, like going to the future seeing if I’m making mistakes and rectifying them. Or probably just going and seeing what was the last and final episode of GoT. And threatening those in the present with the spoilers especially those who keep asking me to watch it.
So let I not hold onto the past,
Not even this moment,
Or this one,
As they all flow, one after another,
They all grow helping us better,
The future, the past and mainly the self.
Learn from it, but always let the moments go,
This one,
And this one.
Endless Ladder 